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im sooo bored

suddenly feel like moodswinging...im wondering, what is the meaning of life? to suffer? are we actually toys of some cruel creature who plays us like we play chess? Eating, money, drinking, loving..are all this really necessary? why not just die? save alot of trouble. i feel like crying..but i dun want to..what is happening to the world? why did god create us when he shall be the one to destroy us eventually? school job all these are just to make us gain useless stuff we cant bring to our grave. Feel sad. There will always be somethings, some mysteries that you will never ever find out or solve. Pity. Why let us live to suffer this agony. abit extra today. blog twice. think this is my first sad blog after the sirius black think.

today went fairfield funfair...sux sia..worst ever..din see fat john.. :< dedicated 3 songs saying we love him..den signed off as YOUR chiobu..then everyone was like whooooo...think the dj was damn irritated..was like again? and din play the last song..tsk...we paid 3 bucks for each dedication ok. anyway..after tt we went wisma..we saw mrs lee..sucked up to her again..haha told her that the name of the helen keller movie was miracle worker..she remembered i posted the thing at crezhelp...yay..i like sucking up to mrs lee...then we went taka...ate alot today..sarah bought fishcake..damn big..audrey refused to share wif me and wanted to buy one for herself..end up her nose bleed...fishcake too heaty cannot eat! hahaha..i l keep luffing...saw alot off ppl today...seen a few ppl in the fairfield funfair..too far to recognise..saw grace, siling, joanne and seping..then at first i din say hi..then audrey push me and i almost fell it to them and i was sort of screaming..they turned back and i was like..hello..lol..saw rachel too..and janessa and sophia(whoever tt was) and saw jiawen and forgotwhatshername..and saw ness's frenz..ray and ashley ariola and alot of ppl lar...haha...i like today...luffed alot..tomorrow is band performance...break a leg...good luck crezband ppl! uphold the gold band standard..and win the world band competition in 2005!!!!!!!!!!! Btw...ppl go watch leh..sunday istana 1 pm....must hor..GOLD band leh....

me and audrey1 went popular ta buy assesment bks..damn guai can..haha..i very happy cos i lend audrey a lot of money! hee ha! i forget to tell ya...i just mastered horseriding and lassoing...damn pro at it now..my teacher is a cowboy..retired sherrif and said im a natural...hehe...what to do..ppl in our line..u know..very busy one..must work undercover(now at crescent girls' school trying to expose a criminal mastermind posing as a teacher) shh..dun tell anyone k...
composed a poem for my beloved ah bu
AH BU! Dear, dear ah bu!
My heart bleeds...whenever your mole diao me
how can i ever convince him that we are one
big big family?
Love is all around
I love you and u love me
Pokemon!
gotta catch them all!

looking back..i never realised i had such great achievements..tsk tsk...lessee...karate black belt...ju-jisto...black belt..fencing..black belt..ballet..black belt..chess...black belt...wa!!!! pro sia! trumpet black belt..lol...o ya..my piano oso damn pro...but cos i have lessons everyday.. monday..beethoven..tuesday..mozart...wednesday...bach...thursday..chopin...friday..tchaikovsky...saturday...picasso come and give me art lesson...wa...no wonder last time the president wanted me to be his private tutor..not onli one..lincoln approached me too.. eh..i got US connections k... me working for the fbi..shhh... and beverly is not my real name..last time i witnessed a mob so they changed my identity to protect me... fbi protecting fbi.... haha ..funny!!!!!! i listened to bsb's i'll never break ur heart for the 25th time this wk...too crazy over that song.. guess i like to rekindle old memories...haha. i think my blog template is damn pro and cool..the car is frm fast and furious...nice rite?!!

sian..just ravamped my blog. Kept having to re-do everything cos always got error the internet. as u can see..its still half done. today fencing is worse than last wk. Both match oso 5-2..damn marloo...haha..me never win b4...when i was hitting this person with the sword..i fell down..almost..but who cares...haha..i scored! but everyone else was luffing.maybe cos everytime i go there i always want to sleep...when i exercise i will kepp wanting to slp. den non stop yawning..ppl see me oso sleepy.

WE GOT GOLD FOR SYF!!!!!!!!!! haha..a bit old lar this news..but cos i never blog for quite a while. tomorrow i have to take lit test. sigh. must stay back. tsk hate kala. irritating. damn sleepy her lessons. today ghostbuster very nice to watch. yesterday sarah and audrey came we watch ghostbusters and goldmember and we played clue with my cousin..attention seeker..irritating freak. cute fun sometimes..o well. before that we went to taka for lunch..damnn full..i want to go there again!!!!!!!!!

wa lao..went british embassy to apply visa..then outside got to man..one indian security guard and one man with a rifle..i very scared. The indian ask me i come for what then i tell him apply student pass then later he give me to leaflets and ask me to read the signboard regarding how to send the leaflets by post dunno what crap lar. den he ask me if i understand i dun dare to say no cos the man got gun. I scared later i kana shot. im too young to die..den later he ask me what it means then i anyhow say then he say ok i faster walk off.

Can die..muscle ache everywhere frm fencing. Ouch. Yesterday i woke up very early to watch ghostbusters then i went back to slp and woke up like 1 sumthing. My mother scold me on all the lights off the aircon dun let me slp. So curel!

not cheating my feelings what..the advertisement said ghostbusters got new episodes but then today i watch dun have...stupid..
yesterday me sarah ness and aud went to watch twin effect..damn funny..especially the part when audrey shouted out loud "OUCH" in the middle of the movie..from then on i laughed non stop...lol..the movie dunny lar..but quite boring...i wanna watch dumb and dumberer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! saw rachel and shirleen the sea horse frm flute too..and sharon tong and corissa and christabel..i made sharon tong say one buddy mil..so cute!!! frm far can recognise her cos she very short...haha...anyway we ate at sake then audrey keep making me laugh i cannot eat properly...i lugi cos i never drink the water there finish....tsk..my heart still very pain..plus sarah never use her free tissue...my heart pain for her oso

today band have audition for syf..cos onli got 15 chairs for trumpet and tromboneso trumpet need to take out more ppl..one more..so between me and jean chong..one has to go out..yea...waste of time actually cos i already knew who would be the one..jean is a much better player than me anyway..haiz actually if got enough chairs i can go lor..but..o well..kinda shocked at myself cos i did not cry..i did not feel sad...i onli felt a teensy bitsy witty disappointed..yep..but i was actually happy for jean! happy for myself to be so wachamacallit...to be actually happy for someone..yea...

my butt still hurts..i fell down the stairs in orchard mrt station and the old woman on the escalator was like tsk tsk tsk...den turn her head...o well..

looked at the mirror during band today realised my neck kinda long shit kinda big..i think i look like a turtle..call me dude squirt

i still havent recovered from misery yet. this morning i woke up early at 7 for band xchange at acsi and was like, ahh..a new day..then after that i remembered sirus was dead..and felt miserable until 7.30 when my maid woke me up..wasnt really asleep you know..just grieved..btw i slept at two cos i couldnt stop thinking abt sirus too...

had a terrible experience yesterday..three indian men came out of the lift..one dyed his hair gold and he was like rapping, yoyo wassup..and his fren asked him to shutup(thank goodness) then he still continue..the lift stunk too...really..no sense of shame..rapping to a stranger..

ACSI sucked...everything there sux...o well..i had fun..eating sweets and rapping during the whole time..SARS IS A VIRUS THAT I JUST WANT TO MINUS. NO MORE SURPRISES IF YOU USE YOUR BRAIN USE YOUR BRAIN USE YOUR BRAIN!!!!!!! im really sick and disgusted at myself so are the people around me but i simply couldnt stop..i started rapping at 8 sumthing until 5....i think the acsi ppl oso sick liaoz...

omg..i've finished harry potter in 4 days...which i've been dreading..i must say, i really didnt want to finish the bk cos when i opened and read the first pg, i started wondering who was going to die. someone important well, i knew it was sirus black. MY FAVOURITE. When i read the part abt him, i lost control and cried till the end of the bk, stopping ocassionally whenever something suspenful and interesting happened, but everytime his name appears, i break down again. Really, WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF WRITE IS JK ROWLING! HOW COULD SHE EVER COME UP WITH SUCH, SUCH ABSURD, UNREALISTIC, NONSENSICAL KIND OF RUBBISH! THEY MUST HAVE BEEN MAD TO PUBLISH HER BOOK! I MEAN, LOOK AT HER? DID YOU REALLY BELIEVE SHE WAS A GOOD WRITER! THOUSAND CURSES! I WISH HER GOOD HEALTH AND HOPE TO SEE THE NEXT BOOK SOON.

Well..the truth is...i really hope that the voice, as luna lovegood claimed to have heard in the archway, would soon be heard by potter as sirus'. I really miss him. Not that he is real, but he was my idol ok. Cool and everything. STUPID, STUPID DUMBDUMBDORE!!!! If only he had more sense. STUPID POTTER!!!!! I MEAN, like, isnt he clever enough to like read the prophecy himself! Always acting hero and all...why cant he have died instead! Or hermy..or ron..or or....hadgrid! Or even Mr Weasly or Ginny or percy or fudge! Anyone but BLACK!!!!! THE HERO!!!!!!!! GEEZZZZZ...i really need to knock some sense into jk...o well..i guess it was meant to be....stupid hse elf. SON OF A BITCH! WHY DID HE BETRAY THE BLACKS! And, and i dont really understand the part abt him falling into the archway...what is that anyway? Anyway..my suspisions were confrimed when i told my tuition teacher abt sirus going to die. She told me that she flipped to the back part...and...and..well..yea...i made her tell me she was lying tho. But honestly. WHAT KIND OF STUPID BITCH KILLED SIRUS! THAT STUPID, NO GOOD BITCH!!!!!!!

I am going to rewrite the ending!

Soon after sirus fell into the archway, Luna's mother pushed him with all her might from inside and he bounced back. Before he knew, he was in St Mungus well as ever, Fudge apoplogised and everything was back to the way it were. He decided to stay with Harry at Pivet Drive, to make sure he was well taken care of, and thereafter spent and enjoyable summer with Harry.

There...better...but i really pity one person tho..this guy..at Z Fencing...really...poor soul..Indy's his name or so i think..he well...finished the book...he said he finished it on sunday...poor thing..he couldnt enjoy the bk slowy...now he has to wait longer than all of us for the next bk...i still feel sad...the most irritating part is, i brought my trumpet home and i really really want to play a sad piece..cos of sirus..i have no sad piece on the piano u see...and the only song i can think of is ROMANTIC CEREMONIAL...only its romantic. Well..the conductor said to think of sad things when u play this song..i shall try...after i bath..its like 8 and im still in sch u..just finished the bk u see...I would play harry potter..i got the piano bk..only it would sound mysterious instead of sad even tho it would make me sad...o well...i shall cry in the bath rm...